Thursday, July 8, 2010
Unkown
You know that feeling when you are about to do something really big and scary and your heart pumps furiously in your chest? The moments where your brain feels frozen in your head and you can't focus on anything? I am in that moment but I have no big feat I'm waiting to overcome nor am I expecting any profound personal event in the near future. I am anxious. My muscles do not want to work how I need, my brain won't stay in one place, my heart seems to be double-beating and my lungs can't seem to absorb enough oxygen. I hoped if I wrote down what I was feeling I might be able to figure out why. I can name a few things in my brain that might cause me to be slightly nervous or anxious but nothing that should be causing this paralyzing anxiety. I need to mow my lawn but I really I just want to sleep.
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3 comments:
Awe Jenna, I am sorry to hear your are feeling this. I hope whatever it is will go away soon!
You know you need to go outside and mow the lawn, but staying inside seems much better right now, eh? Is your skin starting to turn a little more pale? Your heart is pumping faster, your senses are becoming more alert and highly evolved... Maybe your inner vampire is trying to get out. Yes, you've been able to control it all this time and keep it hidden from the rest of us, but now it's time to accept yout true destiny. Go attack a werewolf or something and you will feel much better!
Zach is so very sensitive, isn't he!! I am all too familiar with those times, but can only say we'll pray for you (not to become a vampire!) and hope it passes quickly.
Love you.
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