I saw a dog, it scared me.

Where does life even go?  I remember thinking life dragged on and on (think 9th grade) and then I remember thinking life was going slightly fast (think senior year in high school).  After that life was flying (college was a whirlwind of craziness, thanks, Squirrelpants!) and it got even faster as I fell in love and planned a wedding and dreamed of having babies.  And now?  I don't even think fast qualifies.  I can't imagine what 40 and 50 years old will feel like.  Grandbabies?  I can see why people say there just isn't enough time.  I want to live to see so much of my children's and my grandchildren's lives (and even beyond?).  But we are merely mortal bodies.  We weren't meant to live as long.  But I DO know that I will see ALL my family in heaven again and they will be restored to all of their goodness.

But in THIS life my girls are growing smarter and funnier and happier and awesomer.  Yep, they deserve a brand new word all to themselves.

Sarah is constantly asking me how many more sleeps until her birthday.  She's so disappointed each time when I tell her some number in the 70s or 80s.  I keep telling her it'll come before she knows it!  She is so excited.  Mostly it's because she thinks she'll start school when she turns 5 but I keep trying to explain she has to wait until next year.  My sweet Sarah is just as sweet as she's always been but she's growing a stubborn streak and wants to know why and how and when and who all the time.  Right now my 'because I said so' answers are working but I know they won't for long. 

Joel recently had one of those 'did that really just happen?' moments with Allison.  We had gone to the Kids Fair that day and she had quite an experience that apparently she wanted to share with Joel.  He sat down at the table and she promptly said, 'I saw a dog, Daddy.  It's scared me.'  Joel laughed and asked her all about it.  She didn't elaborate much more than that but he got the idea.  I clarified that it was McGruff the Crime Fighting dog that had her all up in a hooplah.  We all chuckled at her sweet converation.

We are thrilled to be experiencing this life with such amazing little people.  As they are getting older I'm getting glimpses of our future.  Sarah and Allison will sit and read together, they play dress-up super nicely, and they encourage eachother to eat the foods that they don't like (Tonight Alli traded Sarah for her apples and Sarah ate Alli's bbq chicken sandwich.  Needless to say, no one asked my thoughts on the transaction but it worked for them and I went with it.)

It's right now that I KNOW this is where I'm supposed to be.  I know that Heavenly Father is here and watches over us.  I recently had such a confirmation of the Holy Ghost in my life that I was moved to tears and just smiled and shook my head.  How could I ever second-guess the love that He has for me when He provides such amazing experiences to build my faith.