election

I should be sleeping.  I should be trying to sleep at least.  How can I sleep when I'm completely torn about our election tonight.  My heart is aching.  It seems silly to be so upset over an election.  I've put more effort, thought, feeling, and anticipation into this election than I have in all other elections put together.  Ugh.  I am sick to my stomach.  And to be honest I'm torn.  I'm torn between the thought that life as we know it is over.  That we'll be forever saddled with a power-hungry, quick-to-borrow, dead-beat growing government forever and ever and ever.  But then I think that four years is a drop in the bucket for even just our mortal lives.  How much can change that would trigger such a terrible spin-out?  And then I have to balance that with the fact that the Second Coming is inevitable.  That I must remain steadfast in my faith.  That things will get worse.  My children were born in the latter days...life was never meant to be easy for them or me. 

My heart won't stop pounding and my breaths come quickly and uneven.  My hands are shaky.  My spirit feels discouraged.  I am scared that the tempestuous balance of my budget will fall apart given the craziness of the economy that will come.  I am afraid that I haven't stockpiled enough.  I am afraid that my children will be exposed to far too much, too early.  I am scared that I will not be able to protect myself, my family, or my property from a government that has to prove it's too big to fail.  I am scared that we were the last great democratic country and that there is no place left to go. 

Can a state secede from the union?  I'd move there.  Anywhere so that I can keep my own money.  So that I can teach my neighbors and friends the skills I know, and they can teach me what they know, so we can support each other.  I want to be a part of a community where each person does their part.  What one person does well another person may require guidance.  And we work.  We WORK.  We don't sit around and expect payout.


How about that so-called 'transparent government'?  I'd like that too, please.  I'd like to know that when a threat is detected it is addressed and taken care of...not swept under the rug...not ignored...and certainly not lied about after the fact. 

What I WILL take away from this election is that I will pray fervently for my leaders.  The leaders of my home, the leaders of my ward, my stake, my state, my country, and most of all the leaders of my church.  When I am called to whatever and wherever, I will go and I will do.  This is no time to be lax in your faith.  This is the time to hunker down and pray for guidance.  Stockpile.  Stockpile.  Stockpile.  Search.   Ponder.  Pray.  Love.  Endure.  Grieve.  Forgive.